Avatar

i went and saw Avatar on Sunday night...okay so there is so much hype about this movie - it being the most expensive movie to date, directed by James Cameron (director of Titanic, the most expensive movie previous to Avatar), nominated for four Golden Globes, 3D....blah blah blah. so yes...visually this movie is amazing! its not as clear as I thought it would be though, some scenese I feel the outter edges of the screen becoming a little blurry. I also feel like the neon EVERYTHING was a little ridiculous. BUT i don't feel a visually stimulating movie nessecarily means the movie was great. Story wise I thought it was a terrible movie. It is basically an updated Fern Gully/Pocahontas mash up, with neon and cat people! also this movie doesn't move along very quickly...they spend a lot of time explaining things that were already clearly known as it was inferred by characters reactions or past moods toward certain situations.

soooo i know im in the small minority that don't think this movie is stellar...and im okay with that. go see it though....its way cool...but sit next to the edge, it's long and you will need to take a bathroom break mid-movie!

Wish List!

its only a week until Christmas! what? how did that happen? and how do i get an extra week? I'm not ready! between being sick and being insanely busy i have had no time to shop for anyone...ugh and I can't go home without any presents!


anyways...what do you want for Christmas? this is what I want....(I actually havn't shared this list with a single person so I won't get anything on this list but maybe money and gift cards will buy me some)
a flip video recorder! how cute is this little guy? and it has the USB so it plugs directly into your computer! i love capturing little moments of life so this would be so much fun to mess around with! one problem: my laptop is too full to even get pictures off my camera, what would I do with all the video!

a pair of Christian Louboutin heels! i love heels ya'll and shoes in general! so I think I need these! hahah keep in mind this is a WISH list....no I can't afford to spend this kind of money on shoes...but if i did i would have a black pair and a nude pair! (im throwin on my louboutins im throwin on my louboutins -jLo anyone?)

I want to be this girl!!! but i need a pink Snuggie to do so! soooo anyone who knows me knows that I love to cuddle with a blankie...like all the time! I keep my house cooler than comfortable to force myself to always be under a blanket! I have a favorite but I'm thinking a pink Snuggie might just become my new favorits should I own one :) SNUG LOVE!

thats right...A KITTEN! I miss having a kitty around...Zoey was such a good little cat while she lasted! I just want a healthy kitten this time that will live longer than 5 months! My apartment is lonely without a little fur ball running around and welcoming me home! ...sigh... but anyways I think I am ready for a brand new little baby now!

i really want to get a letter from a school that wants to teach me how to do this that says please come here! dream come true maybe? ahhhh this waiting this is kinda getting old and i just want to know already!

Merry Christmas Guys!

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get in the spirit....im trying...so you must too!

trust...working on it...

do you trust people?

im struggling right now to trust people, even my friends and family. like really. i mean the moment that you trust someone they just walk all over you. even if they promise that they would never hurt you or even if they aren't hurting you on purpose something will go down and make you crazy. its really annoying kind of. like i want to trust people...i dont want to become one of those closed off, guarded, emo kids but ya know what! that might be exactly what ive become!

and i realize that forgiveness is something that i should give freely just as Jesus forgave those that killed him and just as he forgives me for my daily sin. BUT its really hard for me. i feel that forgiveness sometimes breeds a culture of like, yea you can screw me over cause i will always be there will a second chance. screw chances dude! why can't people just stay on chance one and do the right thing! i know i know i mess up too...a lot! i admit im working on being a better friend so im like a walking contradiction right now im just a little annoyed of being the bigger person.

so pray for me! that i learn to be more forgiving...like i want to be as forgiving as Jesus is! and i know i will never ever be that but its a good goal.

also pray for good sleep and health...im exhausted and fever-y!

tacos.

so there is this little place in San Antonio called Order Up and it is sooo very good! i get these...

and i love them!

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fresh, organic chicken tacos with cilantro, onion, salsa, lime and guac! i mean really, what's not to love?

Sneezing....sick!

so you know when you have to sneeze and you get that little tickle in your nostril? so what do you do? look at a light, right? but what if they light just slightly heightens your urge to sneeze without getting you all the way there?

im stuck with that heightened tickle right now!

HELP!

Happy Birthday Melody!!!

guys im a really really really really bad best friend....to my best friend....Melody :( but luckily she understands that my life sorta crumpled on her birthday week so she is getting an extra exciting birthday poster today! only ya know...10 days late! (sorrysorrysorry)

so i think Melody deserves a '20 things i love about Melody' list becasue she is the best and she turned 23 on December 1! I will also try to include as many pictures as possible...hahah...we have a lot over the years...i will have to add some when I get on my other computer as well!

sooooo happy birthday to this girl!

1. I love how Melody doesn't call anyone their acutal name....like NO ONE! Her mom - Frella, me - Abileigh, my mom - Momma S, my dad - Pappa S....haha its kind of ridiculous but I have a weird love for nicknames AND my first name and middle name jammed together! it makes me think that I'm like little Laura from Little House on the Prairie...hahah!

2. i love love love this girls family! they are so funny and so nice to me....they are literally like my other family. I love to just hang out with them - weird right? Especially watching Big Brother with them! hahah and arguing with her Dad! so fun! Here is a pic of me with Melody's family in Playa del Carmen one summer in high school!

3. she has the most adorable little boy in the world! Daniel James. I really believe he has done a lot for her as a person and i can't imagine a cute-r little kid! i love him! Just look at this picture!

4. so Melody kind of brings out my fun, crazy, wild side! I'm usually pretty reserved and conservative but she kinda pushes me out of that...in a good way....not in an over the top way! I think in that sense we are great for each other because we kind of balance each other out! but man would i have been in trouble if Melody went to college with me...jusssayin....this pic is of her and Monique 'dropping' me off at my college dorm room TEAR (this makes me seriously cry)

5. this is a weird thing to like i think but its truth...we weren't exactly friends at first site! we had 7th grade biology together and rode the same bus...i don't know where my dislike for Melody started or where it turned into like either really but haha it cracks me up that i was DEF mean to her on the bus (omgshhhh im evil for that cracking me up) but i think it's cuz i really LOOOOOVED some of the boys on my bus and i didn't want any girl walking up on my turf

6. I LOVE MY BIG BROTHER PARTNER YALL! we are obessed with big brother and we watch after dark and i talk to her about almost every episode....really....big brother consumes my life over the summers and ive realized working full time over the summer is not okay! having a show that you MUST watch every night from 10p-2am is NOT OKAY....but we were hardxcore for awhile! hahah! Big Brother Parties! Keith calling Melody's dad Cappy! hahahhaha! the best!

7. so melody is kind of like a know it all about life! i feel like anytime im like hmmm who does that work i call melody and she knows! like domestic life - she knows, cool new gadgets - she knows and probably owns haha, how to cook chicken - she knows! so proud of her!

8. shes just funny! and she has like an infectious laugh! lol i love her laugh...i wish i had an audible (? WTF i just said that) of her laugh...im not a stalker i swear...yikes!

9. clothes clothes and more clothes! all available for me to borrow! LOVE! this is shows that she is a very very giving and trusting person!

10. once upon a time she bought me the best christmas present ever that forever changed my life and which i am eternally grateful...MY CHI STRAIGHTENER! What would I have ever done had that not come into my life! I'm not a makeup girl...im a straight hair girl...can't live one day without my straightener! hahaha just look in my About Me im obessed! and I owe it all to my BFF!

11. i love that when i am away for a long time due to college and just living in another town and come back home its like we havn't skipped a beat! we are just normal....our friendship really hasn't changed and im really really thankful for that esp when ive been feeling like all my friendships are rocky i know i have that solid ground with Melody and always will....and i can just text her or call her (probably text...i do hate talking on the phone) and she will make me laugh and all my worries will just go away and then i will hang up (or the equivalent in texting land) and miss Tomball and miss my senior year and miss Mexico summer trips!

12. okay so I've had so many wonderful oppurutunities in my life because of Melody and her family! I've seen more than I ever thought I would. They took me to Cancun, Benihana's, Playa del Carmen, George Straight at the Houston Rodeo, a hockey game where we met SpongeBob, Kenny Chesney in Dallas....like tons and tons and tons of stuff that I would never have gotten to do, big or small, I got to do with her!

13. This is a picture from Facebook...but I LOVED this class with Melody...haha! this is so old guys! We both had a little crush on a certain someone in this class so we would always cause trouble with him....so much fun!

14. PROM! only like one of the best nights of my life! i love that we were in the same prom group! ugh it was really amazing and i miss it so much and we looked soooo good that night! i remember getting ready at my house as the limo and everyone else was ALREADY THERE i was still trying to find my shoes and purse and get everything together so I kinda sent Melody out to greet everyone hahahah for once she got ready faster than i did! and i love the picture of Melody me and her dad at my house before prom! idk why but her dad cracks me up like literally he is so funny and that picture is just precious! (yikes there i go again saying crazy things like precious!)

15. Melody has also taken my favorite picture of me ever! hahah it was also from prom hahaha it cracks me up...just look at my face...pissed dude! hahahahha

16. lol all of our middle of the day runs to Chick-fil-a for sweet tea and french fries...haha my all time favorite drink and food! we literally would stop by Chick-fil-a like everyday for a tea fix and we would drink it in like 8 minutes! a LARGE sweet tea! hence my sick addiction to sweet tea! hmmm .... at least now I've moved to half and half right?

17. Melody is one of the best present buyers i know! you know that person that always finds the perfect thing for you and you use it all the time and can't pictures your life without it but prior to owning it you didn't even know you needed it? thats Melody! seriously! it drives me crazy and makes it very very very hard for me to buy her things! but thanks for the gifts your awesome! (oh and I have gifts for your kid at my house from his birthday lololol)

18. okay this girl and her driving! lets talk about that for one second....so i have long hair...did most of high school too...and this girl LOVES to drive fast with the windows DOWN and music blaring! hahaha it kind of drove me crazy sometimes but sometimes when I'm stressed I do that now and think of all the crazy stuff that we did in her truck! hahaha not gross crazy (ew people) we were just very very silly sixteen year olds!

19. i envy her i dont give a eff attitude about people who do her wrong....i wish i could cut people who hurt me or at least stand up to them the way that Melody can...im weak in that area! but Melody is confident in who she is and isn't afraid to tell anyone what she is thinking or how they have hurt her or done wrong by her...honesty is the best policy! not holding it in unitl you explode which is the story of my life...sigh....

20. lastly, Melody is just the most complete all around friend I have ever had. We have shared the best times and worst times of our lives together...we had each other when our grandpa's both died senior year, we celebrated our high school graduation together, we've been through many break ups together and even through marriage and childbirth...haha...its weird but shes the one person i can see in my life forever omgsh sad! i miss her but i think the distance has made our friendship better and stronger and like we know distance wont change anything! hahaha ok ok ok mushy OVER!

LOVE YOU GIRL! FOREVER!

Let's Say Thanks!

color blind? no?

so last night i went to the spurs game...yup! fun times! and they were playing the sacramento kings...whose jerseys are clearly purple right....clearly.....

purple right? right! but when you look on the jumbotron or the TV they look BLUE! like dark dark blue! a completely different color! hahaha it was freaking me out all game! okay so ive never watched the kings on TV but I kept wondering if the Lakers ever have this same problem and if purple is the color they want to be why don't they choose a pigment that doesn't appear BLUE on TV?....idk....it was fun game though!

photo is of Omri Casspi, Rookie Foward...hardcore!

hard times call for good scripture

guys please pray for me...im going through some rough times....very conflicted on how to handle them and feel it really is a struggle against what the world would do and what Jesus would do....ughhhh I really need to believe right now that God doesn't give me too much for me to handle....I CAN DO THIS....I WILL GET THROUGH THIS...

God loves me...and that's enough! <---new mantra! hahaha

this was a sweet little email I got from Alyssa today...she doesn't know it but it is making this Wednesday easier to get through...

To get somethign you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.

i will praise you in this storm